Surrender

I surrender! When I say I surrender, I am referring to allow things to come and go. I am letting go of the need to control and taking responsibility over only my actions. I am ceasing the need to force things. I will not force relationships or things I believe that should occur. I have come to the understanding that I am not in total control. My words and my thoughts are the blueprint to what I want out of life. Everything that I have asked for, I have always received. Surrender to the process and open your eyes to the people, and events that occur in your life. There is no such thing as coincidences, everything happens on purpose  for your purpose. Were you are right now is preparing you for where you are about to go. Many of the things that I asked for, I didn’t realize I received my request until I lost it. To much is given, much is required. We ask for marriage and many times for the process, but have you shaped and prepared yourself for this? You want to become a parent, but have you taken the time to work on you? Being a parent is teaching another being how to travel through this journey called life. I forced relationships and allowed men back in my life confusing their selfishness and interest with love. Forcing a relationship just because I didn’t want to be alone. Forcing relationships because I believed they brought value to me.  “Slow down life is beautiful” a man told me while I was rushing to pick up my pizza during a lunch break. This man never met me before but saw everything that I did in that moment was a rush. He was right and anyone that knows me has seen how hectic my life is especially as a single mother. I went back home repeating this to myself. I am constantly going, from the time I wake up until the time I go to bed. Every goal I have set and achieved came and went. Still until this day have I sat in my new home and took in the achievement and what it took me to get here. So now I surrender to the path that is set for me. One that I plan to enjoy along the way.

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