I ENVY the girl that dances like no one was watching.
Most of the other women spent hours trying to find something to wear
While she went for a simple black ensemble with a pair of sneakers
She was comfortable, as here outfit was a reflection of her relationship with herself.
Comfortable in her own skin
She didn’t come to impress, she came to dance
Taking over the dance floor with no liquid courage in hand
An Asian woman with a curvy figure
Dancing to Caribbean tunes in a predominantly black club
Completely letting go of her inhibitions not giving a fuck who was watching
She was completely rebellious, not your typical idea of what society thought she should be.
I wished the loud music would turn. Down the thoughts in my head
To allow me to focus on that very moment
To be able to do exactly what I came to do.
Dance away the stress and pain from the last few weeks
To allow my body to escape to foreign lands because my pockets can’t physically take me there yet.
I was aware of everyone around me afraid not to do too much …with a wine that was restricted not by the skirt but by my thoughts.
I realized there is such a connection in women’s sensuality and dancing. A woman’s confidence exudes through her dance. Her sensuality most likely works for her beyond the dance floor. Leaving all insecurities behind.
Most women go and complain they don’t want to sweat their hair out. Their feet hurt, or don’t want to mess up their makeup. They stand with resting bitch faces in an outfit they spent hours and money to find to look good for that very moment. Uptight, more concerned about being the baddest in the room instead of embracing there unique sensuality.
The young woman reached for me to join her.
She even slapped me across my ass to motivate me to move. She was so much younger than me…why did it take me this long to get this. Let go. Burn a few calories while dancing to your favorite tunes. Dance like I do in front of the mirror at home with no one watching. Sex would be so much better if I got out of my head like I did on the dance floor. The experience is not about the outsiders. Its all about you. Doing what makes you feel good regardless who is watching. You can’t buy confidence. The women all dolled up in fear of messing up their outfit paid for; a mask of Confidence. While this young confident and sensual woman got the experience. To dance the night away like it will be her last time.
This appears to be the worst thing that could happen but he needed to get him alone. In a place where no one else could control the outcome but him. To silence out the noise and remove the distractions. We spend a lot of time trying to do God’s work through trying to make things happen. When we do we create a catastrophe of a mess. Stepping into someone else karma will hurt everyone that played a role in the protection of the individual. Because when god is purposeful there is nothing no human can do to change the outcome.
The is so much power in the creation of life between a man and a woman. That their spiritual paths will always affect each other even when they are apart. Our choices will forever affect the life of our seed.
Unfortunately life doesn’t get easier
In fact, life challenges will increase
People don’t just stop mistreating you
Or relationship issues cease
Some loved ones may remain stunted within their growth
As much as you love them…the way to show them is to let them go
Bills will be there
Destruction of the government
Loved ones will pass away
Hurt people will continue to hurt people
And as much as you want to save the world
You think of it in a collective or as a whole
Instead change the world through you
I realized I will never find peace from external factors.
The human experience is all about differing levels of consciousness
The world around you may crumble and fall
You have to find your peace within
Darkness always comes along with the night
In knowing this you can find peace that the sun comes in the morning.